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right well today i am feeling more than motivate.... it's amazing what a little struggle to put the corset on can do to ones attitude. Today im bloated, so ive looked in the mirror and thought fuck that... so sensible eating here i come.... mind you i am off out on the piss tonight, but one or two glasses of vino wont hurt, and it wont be more than that as im driving.

Had some family shit kick off.... my niece losing the pregnancy... loosing the pregnancy what a stupid thing to say, where did she leave it? If only it was as simple as leaving it somewhere and then going back to pick it up... it kinda misses the point that someone has painfully had to expel the baby out of their body.. the baby that they so hoped would live, the one they loved already despite the fact it looks like a tadpole... yeah im not so sure losing the pregnancy is the right thing to say.

Anyway... now my Dad is playing up.... he dumped his bird coz she called him another mans name.. which is fair enough i can understand that, i would flip a lid too... he suspects shes being unfaithful so dumped her. Im talking about a almost 70 year old man here... is it not a tad worrying that this shit continues right up to that age.. *sighs* i think im going to be single for the rest of my life it's so much easier in the long run... plus it looks like that anyway. My sister and i was talking about this last night... apparently my daughter and i look alike, apparently quiet attractive.. both of us are boyfriendless.... so whys that do you think my sister askes... maybe its the dont come near me or ill kick you in the nutz vibe that we give out? i responded innocently.... coz yer know its true.. i think im going to make a much more conscious effort of being approachable to men, lets see where that gets me, as for my daughter she can stay that way.. i dont want men near her....

I have today made an appointment to see my GP to discuss my blood test results, i think im going to ask to go on the pill.... at my age going on the pill... its almost as bad as my dad dumping his girlfriend at his age... i think we're a lost cause myself.... but oh what fun....