What a feckin liberty..

This weekend has been quite an interesting one. The london munch on fridy, it was heaving and i had a wonderful time. Was funny though as on the way conkord rang, i couldnt speak and so he said he will ring me on Sunday or Monday, i have been having a few late night calls from a withheld number and his number was withheld.... im wondering if it was him? Though usually he just texts me telling me to ring.

Anyway i met w at the munch, had a laugh, it was his first fetish thing so it was all a bit too much for him. A certain female friend of mine quite liked him and asked if she could have him. I didnt really realise this game was more akin to being at a meat market.... anyway i told her to sod off he's mine, which he is. I doubt he would have been interested anyway if im honest.

Went to ST on sat night... i looked the dogs bollox in me rubber catsuit and pvc corset. Had a great night got put into some really good bondage and tied to a chair and was tormented... i love how they do that when you actually cant do anything physically about it... grrrrrr

Sunday went to the LAM and again had a great time, havent been in a while so it was good to catch up with some old friends. Though Djin got into a grump as usual... he's a right moody fucker at times. But it did make me reflect on the issue of power exchange, sometimes it almost like a vanilla relationship, he sulks to try and get power and he aint bloody getting it!! At the LAM i actually got a posture collar.... now all i need is my ballet boots and im sorted... CAN YOU FUCKING HURRY UP.

Got home and there was an email from the afore mentioned female, basically having a go at me for not supporting her with the incident that happened ages go, apparently i walked away from confrontation. That is bloody amazing as i was actually stood between the pair of them so a fight couldnt start. I think this has been forgotten about. I suspect it boils down to this particular person being jealous of me, which she readily admits too. But should i allow her to keep putting me down, she does this to ohers too.... im not sure why. Well i know it makes her feel slightly better about herself.. anyway im undecided if to respond or not, i have written a response but do i send it?

She has massive self esteem issues.. and that isnt my problem, i cant help it that i enjoy my life.. i cant help it that men are attracted to me as i really make an effort to get dressed up when i go out and im fun.. i cnat help that.. i cant help it that others are jealous as they do not have the same fun i do..., im not changing for anyone and right now im really fucked off that a so called friend can accuse me of not treating her with the same respect she treats me when all the fucking time she tries to pinch my men...

This particular person has also befriended another woman who i dont really like, yanno when there is something you just cant put your finger on.... well im rather selective about who i have as friends.... and if i dont see people as having anything in common with me i aint gonna bother.... so ive been letting her get on with that friendship and ive been keeping out of it, also because i know she's down and there is only so much you can do.

In the last couple of months i have been in some sort of bullshit caused by women.. seriously to god sometimes im ashamed to be female.. they are fucking mental.... sort it out you psycho bithces no wonder men dont fecking want you.... jesus christ....

sorry that turned into a bit of a rant there... whoops.. :o) Fuck em.... im living my life you want to wallow in self pity then fuck right off......