arghhh

Ive been on one of the web sites i use and i happened across someone talking about the guy i see, he's a pro dom and someone mentioned he knew of him. I felt a rush of jealousy... i dont want anybody else seeing him. I know this prick doesnt know the uber really... ive met the guy and he's one of these insignificant idiots who has something to prove. I feel like telling him to shut up.

Anyway, getting back to the bit that is important... jealousy... mine... jealous of him possibly seeing other girls. I know he does, he's fit and could have his pic of girls. So why does it provoke such a reaction from me when i see his name being banded about on a Internet site?

Its not like he would cross over the boundaries of the relationship, i know he doesnt.... i want him and i want him to be mine... all mine and no one elses.. errrrrrrrrrr yeah coz that is really going to happen. I need to do a piece of work looking at vanilla emotions and D/s ones... i have to keep him in his box because this really doesnt feel good, writing about it here helps... but i obviously have much bigger issues that i need to work on............ :o(