musing

Yanno the whole internet dating thing is really rather strange, you can go for months where you just seem to be talking to idiots who between them don’t have a brain cell, and then every once in a while you start talking to someone who really seems to hit your buttons..... well im currently in a he hits my buttons moment.

The profile was spot on, he see’s things exactly how i do.... cant really see what he looks like from his picture though. Some in this world do say it really shouldn’t matter. You’re submitting for the sake of submitting rather than to the person... what bollox, basically if some guy is gonna be getting his hands on me i at least want to feel at least slightly attracted to him.
But what he writes is just me, hes like the complete opposite of me.... he’s a 37 year old switch, he’s already in a relationship with a Mistress and is now seeking a submissive. Thats cool by me as i have the ownership of a sub and play with another, and ive started talking and meeting another too.. so possibly 3 submissives. So who ever i submit too is gonna have to be ok with that. I don’t have sexual contact with submissives............ (liar)................. ok so one i do.... but if i was in a relationship with another i wouldn’t.

Poly stuff is quite funny , previous i was completely monogamous.. and prone to jealousy. Since engaging in BDSM i have kinda sought out poly relationships as a way of trying to curb my jealousy. Its ok if you know he’s going to be seeing others and as long as you feel secure then its generally not too bad... though you do still have your moments... like i did the other day. Im ok knowing things are going on, i don’t wanna know whats going on... then its the red flag to the bull moment, incidently i am a taurean ;o)

Anyway this guy is saying the same as me basically.. the expectations, boundaries seem to be similar.. its not often i get to speak to someone who thinks like i do. Despite my foul mouth and obvious brash nature m view on submission is really quiet intense. I like lots of control and for the most part would be happy with high protocol... she says that only because she has never experienced it properly .....

Ah i dunno.... sometimes you want to get excited yet time after time evidence tells you don’t bother coz yanno he’s gonna turn out to be another complete cunt... do you think calling Doms cunts is bad? Oh well.... i wouldn’t call the uber a cunt.... i do concord though ... he likes me to call me his dirty little cunt... strange man.... he’s lucky hes got that body i tell yer....
Ive contacted the shop ive ordered the ballet boots from today, they still haven’t come and its been a month... im seriously not happy. If they don’t come back with a suitable response im gonna cancel the order and buy from punative shopes... expensive but lovely.....
Another good thing about this guy he’s into body modification, waist training, heel training the whole lot... tis all too good to be true...