The doom and gloom didnt last very long really, well one day. I just guess it depends on who you talk too and their own personal view on that which is edge play. I spoke to one guy who i speak to quite regularly and he just said he wished that he could find someone like me... so essentially i guess it is all completely objective...... anyway its by the by i adore the pro and all he does end of.
So much has happened to me since i last wrote here... in fact writing this now i cant quite remember what my last input was... anyway it matters not.
The person who felt like they had so much in common with me.. well one night he was acting like a child on msn, writing all that pathetic on line talk which i cant stand... so he can bugger off. Plus he's off work on long term sick and now living with his parents.... so not really someone that i would see as being a strong dominant man... and yes we can all have bad times, but pleaseeeeeeee.... if he had of been good looking i probably would have been more forgiving but he isnt so stuff that.
Had an excellent weekend this weekend, Friday was the west london munch and there was a guy there selling really cheap decent quality kit... i got a cane £2, and a fiberglass £4 leather covered cane. posture collar for £5 and someone bought me a leather belt which is nice for £3.. how sweet, he said if you dont buy it for you im going to buy it for you.... i tried it on and went to look in the mirror on my way back i got hoodwinked and put into bondage, as yer do... so by the time i went to the guy to pay the other guy already had!!
Then A who had been doing the knife play demo decided to carve me up a bit.... and he made me bleed... which he enjoyed... and now hes quite keen to play with me. Well he thinks he is a vampyer, this is a cool thing my very first Dom also was into vampyerism.... so yeah i dig that whole scene... we exchanged numbers.. i was drunk as usually i try to avoid him as he is a bit of a man whore... and he tried to ring me on Sat but i ignored it...
Conkord let me down again and i was supposed to ring him on Thursday to make other arrangements.. needless to say i didnt bother... he made me feel needy and insecure so im not going to bother with him anymore and he can continue to chase me in the 4 weekly cycles like he does... and i will continue to tease him like i do.. but nothing more will come of it than that.
Talking to one other M... who lays claim to being into TEP and M/s..... but they all say that and mostly they are all so completely full of crap... plus he's little 5'8", and stocky.... looks short and fat to me.. ex rugby player.... we're supposed to be meeting tomorrow.... we shall see.
Other than that im on which is good as it means im going to be able to see the uber soon and at the end of the day he's the only one i want... i just wish he wanted me too..... maybe he does... well a girl can dream... :o)
An old friend of mine got back in contact over the weekend, he has lots of issues and is gender confussed. Quite funny really as we went out one night clad head to toe in rubber and it got a bit saucy... "will you just fuck me" i demanded... which he would have done if we had condoms.... anyway he has now been autorised through the NHS to become a girl... so ive gone from trying to turn a gay guy straight.. to a lesbian... anyway we have made a pack.... i was almost the last person he had got a bit jiggy with... and im going to the first when he's a bird.. i am straight but come on how many others can say they have been with a chick with a dick... gonna be really fecking strange.... my life is a bit odd isnt it.... seriously i am completely normal and sane i assure you... well kinda.
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