Decomparmentlisation... i make it up as i go along

I think im going to try and update this on a daily basis, the problem of course is when I become so busy and don’t get time, I also find when im in a very good mood I feel less inclined to record whats going on, maybe this is my way of externalising my emotions…. It does all seem to make some form of sense when you read it back to yourself, doesn’t quite beat chatting it through with another person however.

I think I need to work a little bit more on my decompartmentalisim (is that a word? Not according to spell check) aspects to my life….. I have so many fingers in so many different pies and it seems the only way I appear to be able to cope with it all is to stick it all in boxes…. The sub me goes here, the sadist me goes here, the mother goes here, the professional woman over there and the pro domme… well this is a new one for me….

So where does it begin, a friend of mine a very well respected dome asked if I would double dome with her…. I thought it would be interesting to do, not for the money but just to see how it worked in principle… PD’in isn’t something that I have really ever thought about I have to be honest…. I have a job that I love and quite frankly just do not have the time… plus I don’t really get the whole role play thing, plus no where to do it etc etc.. a vast number of reasons why not to do it… but shes great and I was curious to see how she strutted her stuff.

To date we have done two session with a guy called C, hes just finding his feet, the first one we both toped him, the second he spanked me…. That was quite nice as it happens… quite sensual unlike the uber… anyway. I get the odd message from him informing me how he is looking forward to the next time…. Its bloody expensive for him… £200 an hour…. For both of us and that is split… he must be mad.

Anyway tomorrow night will be a session with someone I have been introduced too but don’t know… this guy is more into worship and anal.. I have refused to allow him sexual contact but I have agreed to do him with a strap on… not sure really how I feel about that… doing some guy who I don’t know, not attracted too with a strap on….. it will be interesting… lets see how it goes… lets see if I can decompartmentalise it all.. you will be the very first to know…