Better now..

Well im in a much better mood today, thankfully.. been messing around with S and he sent a text to a certain pro dom as if it was from me about a freebie…. Anyway hes responded so it looks like I may be sessioning with this guy, I aint bloody paying though. Anyway it has cheered me up….. though it has also made me think a little about what about the uber, I have stipulated what can and what cant happen…. Somethings are the ubers yanno….. erotic asphyxiation namely…. That has to be done with him and him only. Well until I meet someone who can take his place….. which aint happening any time soon I can assure you.

I was nearly at the point of emailing uber to ask him if he would take more control… then I felt a warm rush of blood and didn’t send it, he scares me so much its unbelievable…. The consequences of sending that would be bad… if he said yeah then fuck…. I wouldn’t know what to say or do… I would be in heaven. And if he said no I would be completely gutted….. anyway maybe I will ask him the next time I see him… which at this rate will be December some time. L

Im also talking to some guy off a site who messaged me saying im beautiful and intresting but I woyldnt be interested in him blah blah blah.. he is cute.. but I suspect he would be very boring… most men are… the uber isn’t hes a god….. SS seems to be ok too.. and he actually reminds me a little of MrV, but saner… so yanno…. Not sure what he is after though… one off session, possibly more.. regular stuff.. who knows…. Anyway go with the flow and see what happens.