Oh bondage....

up yours.

Strange dreams last night.... i went to bed willing the uber to be thinking of me, i wonder if that crap works.. lol And woke up coming out of a dream where MrV had just had his evil way with me! That was quite a nice dream as it happens.... Hmmmmmmmmm. I had been telling someone about the mental connection that i had with MV at the time when i submitted to him.... it was a very short relationship but i was just so open to him... and now 1.5 years neaarly after it ended i started crying when i was writting about him. Im not sure why, obviously still some unresolved issue there somewhere... maybe if it had finished ddue to us hating each other it would have been different... but he promised me one day he will come back and get me when he is well enough to take on a submissive..... and i think a large part of me is still waiting for that day. Between MV and the uber...... well MV would be the one..... and whereas i thought i had gotover him... it is becoming clear that in fact i have not.... the bastard!! :-P

Why do we always want what it is we can not have?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

This weekend i have been invited to two private parties.... most excellent. One my friends, close friends... which would be ok if i had nothing else on. And the other is by three guys who are seriously good with rope bondage.. did i mention before im a rope slut? Anyway its a bloody tough call........ ive asked if i can take my posture collar, camera and ballet boots.... hehehehhe guess what im going to be doing this weekend... unfortunately they dont have a suspension point.... or else i would be doing the strappado, even though i told the uber he can do it.... i cant see him till next month, his fault.. and what is a girl supposed to do?? Remember this is a non commitment relationship..... so why should i remain loyal to just him? I shouldnt.. i wont fuck anything else though...... that is his... and his alone.... well for now ;-)

One of the boys i have been playing with has been talking to another woman and is askinng for me and him to play with her and her 3 partners.. ermmmmmmmmmm NO, he can play with them.. im not.... and if he does i wont touch him again. Im funny like that.... i expect loyalty.. this woman has pissed me off... DONT FUCKING move in on MY toys.... shes done this before with my slave.... and he told her to feck off.. he is completely loyal to me physically... cyberly hes a man whore but thats ok.... i dont like the scene as it is so bloody incestuous.. now im pissed off and need to see the uber for a beating and i cant .. so arghhhhhhhhhh..... anyway i will update on this point in the future....

Protocol is if someone is playing/belongs to someone else you dont go near it.. so why the fuck am i the only one on the london scene that sticks to it? I think i may start making moves on their toys.. see how that makes them bloody feel grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...........................