i must write more, i must write more often

SEriously i do not get the time to keep this thing up. Im so busy doing, ermmmmmmmm doing nothing.

The private party thing was nice, got tied by some guy who learnt to do rope out in japan. Really knew his stuff... was really interesting being tied by him too as he uses his whole body to do it, using his legs to hold mine into place, exaggerating the movement with his hands across my body when he places the rope. Probably the best bondage to date.... loved it.

Took the ballet boots and managed to stand in them reasonably well, im going to do the strappado early april at some london peer workshop thingy...... so it wont be the uber doing it. Which is ok i guess...... why should i let him have all my firsts when the relationship isnt a relationship.. nah..... anyway pictures to follow on that front.

Been wearing my 6" heels at home and can walk quite comfortably in them... i ventured out in them but i could only walk from my house to my car before i had to remove them, still a long way to go there then. The ballets havent been put on since the weekend, though i have just ordered another pair off ebay for £29.. what a bargain.. lets see what they look like when they arrive.

Last night someone who i used to speak to a fair bit messaged me out of the blue. Telling me apparently i hurt him.. i have no idea how or why, he wont say..... obviously emotionally. He came across as a guy who just wanted a bit of spanking and a threesome, well that aint my thing so i wasnt interested... so how he's got this idea about me leading him on i have no idea...... seriously some of the people that do this bdsm malarkey are proper strange, yes even me.

Ive started dieting properly...... i have to do this.... but this afternoon im hungry..... i need food, i need the uber but cant have him........ arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........